You know what's weird? No one has ever called me a 'prick'. I've called tons of people pricks. I'm sure I've heard every single one of my friends called a prick at least a few times. It's usually in jest, mind you, but that word is just one of those qualifications that is typically used to address certain characteristic behaviors, which makes me think I've never even once exhibited that quality enough to illicit that label.
Not that I mind, it's just a thought. It's not even the point of this post.
I haven't written in a long time. I mean, every now and then I'll sit down and write a story idea down, or ramble a bit about an interesting thought I had, or perhaps just vent about the recent going-ons of my personal life. None of those I've shared with people; I've never gone back to read them, hell, I never even bothered to press backspace enough to correct an obvious spelling mistake that's more than two words back. No one was meant to read them, even the story ideas weren't meant to ever be re-visited and written. They were just thoughts to write down, because I enjoy the writing process. It helps me articulate my feelings, it feels like I'm turning some ephemeral abstract concept into something real. It makes me feel real.
But as for writing anything with substance... I can't remember the last time I wrote something that had any sort of care put into it. Even this post right now is essentially just me rambling. I suppose there is a point to this post though, but I wasn't quite sure how to say it quite yet, so really, everything you've read up to now was just a warm-up exercise. I bet you feel cheated, don't you? I'd delete this and start over, but we've come too far, even if right now as I write this, you don't exist past being a future prospective reader.
But anyway... I've had www.ailsglyph.com registered for over two and a half years, and its never had anything on it. I had big ideas for it, still do, but I've come to realize that big ideas need to start small if they're ever to gain any kind of momentum. So I decided to re-direct it to my Ailsglyph blog, simply because it already existed, and since it already has so many flaws associated with it, I already don't mind making more mistakes. These blogs exist for a purpose, and my god, I'm gonna get there one way or another, even if I have to drunkenly stumble the whole way!
If you're wondering what Ailsglyph is, well... I'm sure I made a post about it around here somewhere, stop being lazy and go find it. This blog in particular is basically the sister blog for ailsglyph.blogspot.com which is supposedly reserved for the actual fictional universe of Ailsglyph, while this blog is more reserved for my own personal musings that may or may not be related to the various trials and tribulations I had to endure in order to actually write an actual honest-to-goodness real chapter.
One of the strange things about this format is that there's no real guaranteed way to get people to read the chapters in the right order. I mean, for the most part you don't need to read it in the right order anyway since so much about the story is scrambled in the first place. I figured it might be fun for readers to get various clues as to who characters are, what their back-stories are, and what their relationships are to other characters as they read through the chapters, and then they could go back and re-read past entries. 'Fun' being a particularly useless and meaningless subjective adjective in this context.
The other weird thing is that the story of Ailsglyph has actually changed quite a bit since I first started that blog. I mean, there's only a handful of entries anyway so I could just like, edit them and remind people that they're out of date and not considered canon or whatever. But I'm fairly certain that even if I go full throttle with this project, there's going to be a humongous amount of inconsistencies and minor changes that would simply confuse any potential reader that is actually trying pretty hard to keep up and follow the story.
But y'know what, that's also part of the 'fun' I was mentioning earlier. The story's essentially a puzzle anyway, why not throw in a few more pitfalls in there to make it even more difficult to comprehend. I'm just gonna go with the flow on this one. Sorry presumed potential reader. Hopefully you've read this blog entry in particular so you know what's on the up and up.
That said, I do plan on cataloging these entries into a bigger and much more cohesive collection. That's when the actual editing will occur, and then I'll decide on how to release it in a more digestible format.
So what's the point of even having the blog in the first place?
It's entirely selfish, I admit. I write differently when I have a presumed audience. As far as I can tell, nobody's ever even read the majority of the entries I have on this blog, but the fact that they could is what really matters here. I actually kind of care about what I write, I put more thought into it, I correct the obvious grammar/spelling mistakes, I have that extra voice in the back of my head that's telling me to not write down something stupid - even though I tend to ignore it - it's just feels nice knowing it's there.
The other reason is simply because if somebody does attempt to follow the story, they could give me some feedback, which of course I'd appreciate. Couldn't hurt my motivation either. But oh dear me, I'm getting ahead of myself.
I think I've rambled enough for now. I'd expect to see a new entry on the Ailsglyph blog shortly, hopefully by tomorrow. I'll probably post more often on this blog in particular since it requires substantially less thought, as you no doubt have surmised, but I'll do my best to write some new entries with some degree of regularity.
Wish me luck!
